The doctors have told me not to put any guilt on myself, as the cause is unknown and it can be triggered at any time. I have tried to think back at when this might have started. I think maybe February. She didn't want any solid food anymore. I just thought it was because her front teeth were pushing through. She had a runny nose at that time too. Don't all kids have runny noses. I had no idea. If only I had known. But truthfully we did catch it early. I realize now that it was actually a blessing to have the cursed strep in our house. It is the reason we kept taking her to the doctor. It is the reason she was finally diagnosed. I am still in shock. As I said on Facebook, "I keep hoping the tears will stop but everytime I see my daughter my heart breaks more, everytime I talk with my boys it breaks again, and reading everyone's words of kindness and encouragment brings a flood of tears once again. I promise we are doing well, but the tears come anyway."
My heart is filled with peace although, I still sit here in shock. I keep thinking that I will wake up from this dream. Someone please wake me up.
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